lucky charm...

yesterday, i was talking to a good friend of mine, A...talking about how our lives has changed (or not changed) in this last few year etc... she got married and now is pregnant with her first baby...then we were talking about another friend of ours, J also married...i m the only one who is still single and doing my research...then she highlighted that i helped her organize her wedding and also was present at J's wedding. then she said somehow u managed to get all of your friends married...ya true enough...i didnt help them find their husband but i was there for their wedding, helping them with whatever needed to be done...as we were talking she also told me how many other friends of mine who are actually married after they got to know me...she said "somehow u r the lucky charm...anyone who meets you and gets close to you gets married in a year..." i laughed at this idea, then i was telling this to J and even she agreed to A. when i heard this, one part of me agreed to this and felt happy but somehow deep inside me i felt sad...

viva...

yesterday, my friend went for his viva...i almost cried when they announced that he passed. i feel so happy for him...anyone who is not here and going through this process will never understand why this whole research thing takes forever...but we do...we no it so well...that is what makes this success sweeter...may be it is worth waiting for after all...i really hope it is...

only in movies...

today my friend told me that she watched "you've got mail" again...well i told her only in movies...you will be alone and facing difficulties and then comes a wonderful guy, rich, good looking etc and sweep you of ur feet and make all your difficulties go away...then she asked how about real life...well in real life...u end up ALONE...

my life...

sometimes i really wonder what is wrong with my life...at times i feel that i try my best to make the best out of my life and at the same time just go on with what i have but somehow everytime i do, life finds a way to trick me into sorrow...may be i m just plain stupid, i donno why everyone thinks that i m the easiest person to con in this entire universe...i really feel sad being like this...i m not asking for all the riches in the world but somehow i dont think my life should be as bad as this...

everytime anyone needs any help i try to help them and so on...somehow i dont think i m that bad of a person to go through all this...i m not asking to be repaid for whatever good things i have done in life...i just wish that it is not as bad as this...even the thought of all this is making me cry...

henna

When I am in campus, I often eat out. There are of course some restaurants which are my favourites. Mainly because they are happy to prepare vegetarian food for me...the other day when i went to lunch, a waiter came to my table and asked what I would like to have. as he was writting down my order i noticed henna on his fingers. This waiter is from India. As far as I know, Indian men usually only use henna for their wedding (well, sometimes for the wedding of someone very close to them like siblings etc)...I cannot help but to wonder, did this guy just come here to work few months after he got married. I always have a soft spot for people who travel miles to work in a foreign land leaving their families and their loved ones back home...The need to survive or the hope of a better future brings them so far...I know for a fact that when one Indian goes abroad to work would mean that a few of their family members will have a better life...but is this worth all the sacrifice these people are making.. I wonder...

philosophy of life...

"Nothing makes you learn something as fast as when you are required to teach someone"

this week i was required to teach a subject that i had no idea at all...first when i thought about teaching this i was a little worried...then i decided to have crash course of the subject of course with the help of book and the net...and somehow i donno why everything seems to fall in their place...and i manage to teach half of what i intended to. tomorrow i have one more session. hopefully it will be ok...

whatz his name...

last friday, i was in the bank, when someone called my name...i looked at him, it took me a while to guess who this guy was...he is a friend from my undergraduate years...so we spent some time talking and exchanging phone numbers, joking etc...both of us burst out laughing thinking of some of the things that we did in campus...and while all this are happening there was only one thing going on in my mind...what is this guy's name...i know who he is etc, what course he was doing etc but still can figure out what is his name...and i was too embarrased to ask his name...till the end i key in his number in my phone but have to put his name down...i called my roomate during those years to ask her whats his name but she didnt answer her phone...what shall i do now???