me...paranoid

i no it has been some time since i last wrote...many things have happened since and somehow i didnt feel like writing...today i thought i should write about what i m going through for the past two weeks...there is a problem that i m trying to solve but somehow i am not able to do it. it is so annoying and also so out of my control...i know that...but why does it bother me so much...why do i feel like i m very bad at handling things, why does everything related to this irritating me...i really wish i know the answer...i do hate what is happening...