having time and wasting it...

yesterday i was listening to my radio while driving...the dj gave some suggestion on how to use one's spare time correctly. he examples such as, if we r waiting for someone in the car, one should use the time well by cleaning the car etc...this way we r not wasting any time...and he was going on and on about how one should waste time just sitting doing nothing in the car etc... i have no problem if anyone wants to use their time well by clearing their car or doing whatever other work they have while waiting...but my question is what is wrong if i just sit there and do nothing or look at people or forget myself listening to favourite song...so what if i spend an hour just doing nothing and dream about everything beautiful that has or will/not happen in my live...what is the craze about saving time and using it wisely...my question is what is the point of saving time if u cant park your car and look at rainbow or leaves falling...then what is the point of l ife or living...

missing...

these few days i have been feeling like i am missing something...there is this feeling of emptiness in me which i cannot relate to anything or anyone...making me feel rather down...last night when i was in bed...i was thinking of this...then it dawned to me that the truth is i just miss being in love...i just miss being important to someone or being needed by someone, i miss the feeling when my tears, laughter, my frustration and my excitement everything meant something to another person...i miss the feeling that i no someone is with me through my journey of life and knows what i am going through...i know it is silly that at the age of 31 i still have this child like fantasies...but i cant help it...and i really miss that...

relationships...

someone asked me today if i have ever been in a relationship, so i asked him again, what difference does it make??? we was quiet for a while, then he said " it doesnt, i guess"...that made me really wonder...as it is i m clueless about relationship...generally i notice people differentiate between relationship and friendship... but are they really different (excluding physical intimacy) are these two really different... i really wonder...

barathi

i must confess i have not read much of barathi's work. i have only read some of his poems...but one thing i notice about his writtings is that he is very much ahead of his time...If I am not mistaken, he died around 80 years ago. he was definately very much ahead of his time...even today people are still not ready to accept some of his ideas...I really wish i can read his biography...but i guess that will have to wait for another day...

relationship...

I have always wondered, why are relationships so difficult...something I have yet to find answers to. However, there are some things about relationships that I have discovered or observed. First of all, relationship comes in all shape and sizes, there is no such thing as defining a relationship. What one considers as relationship might not be a relationship for others and vice versa. Yesterday, as I was watching 'Desperate Housewives' something just hit me...There are two very important variables in a relationship (plus all the other millions of other variables in the relationship). Those variables are the person you are involved with (ie whether that is the right person or not) and of course the quality of a relationship (good relationship or not)...When I say the right person, I am not implying a perfect person or a perfect match (I am too old to think that... :) ), I am just saying a reasonable person who is right for the individual and the same goes for relationship. Perfect relationship do not exists, at least not to me...

Having these two variables are enough to make relationship so complicated...One is lucky if he/she is having a right relationship with the right person, but i donno how often this happens...every other combinations will create problems, tension, etc... I have no idea what I am trying to say or write but somehow it made a lot of sense to me... lol...