what is this feeling...

sincerely, i have no idea what i am going through these days...may be it is a phase or may be it is my long lost adolescence...coz i feel like i am 17 again...i am having this big crush on someone, enjoying whatever attention i am getting...after a very long time, i am feeling this way...or sometimes i wonder have i ever felt this way before...everything seems like a puzzle to me... like what i told my friend i have lived 34 yrs of my life being clueless...guess this is going to continue...

sexy and cute...

this is related to the post which I made a few days ago about having a crush on someone. well, nothing much to say just that he texted me to say that i looked cute and sexy...hehehe...so i just thought i had to write this down...

roses and valentine's day...

I dont know what i was thinking when I agree to meet a guy i was chatting with on friday evening...suppose to meet at six but then later we decided to meet at ten. i told him i will meet him at the coffee house in the hotel coz I dont think i am ready to go out with him yet... first i was very cool, then as it got closer to 10 pm...i was really thinking what am i doing...what did i agree to do this...anyway, it was too late coz at 10 sharp he called to say he was there...so i went to meet him, i said hi and he said hi and the next thing i knew, he gave me 3 pink roses...i was really surprised, seriously didnt expect that, has been many years since anyone gave me a rose or a bouquet of roses ( i know it sounds pathetic but that is the truth)...for a good minute or two didnt say much...seriously surprised...then we started talking and i was feeling more comfortable etc, so i thanked him for the roses...it was a pleasent conversation, i didnt dread sitting there and am very glad about it...we talked until past midnight...when we realized that it was already valentine's day, he actually wished me and we continued talking for a while...and he left around 1230... i dont have any regrets meeting him, whether i will meet him again...i really dont know... but no regrets...

crush...

i have the biggest crush on someone, A, a guy from work. He is not that good looking but i find him very nice to talk to...yesterday i called him to ask about work and when he answered my call, he just said "hello darling"...i paused for a while...is this what people describe as "my heart skipped a beat"...i really dont know may be it is...well, excuse my ignorance but i have never said this to anyone and have only heard someone said this to me once...so it is understandable right...lol...as for the guy who said this phrase to me...well that will be another story for another time...lol...

me, rain, car and umbrella...

today, i was walking to my car for lunch...it started raining...it has been more than a month since it rained here...it was not very heavy but i was glad i could feel the raindrops on me, i stood there a 30 seconds or so, only then i realize my turqoise saree is actually getting wet...then i walked to my car, drove to the cafe where i usually take my lunch...took out my umbrella, got down from my car and tried opening my umbrella...guess wht happened...the umbrella actually 'terbalik'...it was still raining, i just laughed and continued walking in the rain and enjoyed it of course...i guess this is just God's way of telling me that I should enjoy the raindrops a while longer and that i m really lousy with opening umbrella as i am coming out of my car...

a walk in the clouds...

last saturday, my friend and i decided to go to taiping...something we planned for last chinese new year holiday...to go to taiping to see tulips...somehow it didnt materialize until last saturday...we reached maxwell hill around noon...it was so misty...it felt like i was walking in the clouds...such a wonderful feeling...then we walked up to the place where they have the tulips...it was so beautiful and has a very pleasent, lingering smell...i have never seen tulips in my life and always wanted to go to amsterdam to see them...meanwhile i thought of getting a glimpse of them in Taiping... we were really so excited and took so many photos of the tulips...definately more than the our photos...after maxwell hill, we went to the taiping zoo...i was kind of fun...we saw mr. and mrs. melman (giraffes), lions, elephants, zebras and all...it was nice...i am so happy we went for this trip, my friend and I had a pleasent day and enjoyed ourselves very much...