is that my life...

I met an old lady at the cafetaria yesterday. She sat at my table and asked me if I know any vacant room because she wants to rent a room. Well, I told her that I dont really know but in my mind I was wondering why is she looking for a room. Furthermore she is like 60+. So I asked her if the room is for her. She said yes and told me that she is alone and needs a place to stay. She told me that she is working in the university to support herself and needs a place that is near to the university. When she said that, I started wondering...is this a sign...is this how my life would be when I am 60+...all alone, staying alone, working to support myself...that made me a bit scared and sad actually...I continued eating...she continued eating...

Later she told me more about her life. Of course I do not know if what she said is true but this is what she told me. She has five children. All of them are married but none wants to take care of her or give her financial support so she has support herself...I felt sad for her but I realise something. Basically, there is not guarantee in anything. People often say that I should get married and have children otherwise I would end up alone...Well, when I really think about it, I would rather be alone and end up alone then be married and have children and still end up alone...life is a matter of how you make sense of it...