today is the day...

today is the day i give up...i always try very hard to maintain relationship or friendship or whatever ship they are called. but today i m really tired and i have decided to give up...there are not many things i have given up in my life...but this certainly is one of it...i admit it...i am so lousy at being a friend that i had to try so hard otherwise i guess people would not want to be with me...i admit it, for a person who always thought and take pride in being a good friend...today i realize i m really lousy at it...i guess i m so insignificant in anyone's life that it is so easy for anyone to throw me out of their lives...but why cant i ever feel that way...y is it i feel i want people to be in my life...may be i m just so insignificant...i know if i give up i will be all alone n miserable but i cant do this anymore...i will just chose to be miserable by myself...i give up...